Connor's caress, so like Sophie's and coming not long after it, doesn't exactly disgust him. He shifts a little bit when he feels it, not away or into the touch but obviously surprised, and then Connor says the last thing he ever would've expected to hear. I'm in love with you. Somehow, them going for a friends with threesome benefits was more believable than this, and John's not sure that ever actually happens outside of porno.
He finally turns to look at Connor, and the abject misery on his face makes him feel a bit sick. However he feels, he didn't want to make Connor feel anything like this.
"I - I don't -" How often is he genuinely speechless? But he knows he has to say more, when he ended on a negative. "- I don't know what I'm supposed to - I didn't -"
Fuck. He scrubs a hand over his face and tries again. "Connor, you're the most important person in my life right now, but I don't know if I can - if I do - fuck." The last word comes out as a long, shaky exhale.
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Connor's caress, so like Sophie's and coming not long after it, doesn't exactly disgust him. He shifts a little bit when he feels it, not away or into the touch but obviously surprised, and then Connor says the last thing he ever would've expected to hear. I'm in love with you. Somehow, them going for a friends with threesome benefits was more believable than this, and John's not sure that ever actually happens outside of porno.
He finally turns to look at Connor, and the abject misery on his face makes him feel a bit sick. However he feels, he didn't want to make Connor feel anything like this.
"I - I don't -" How often is he genuinely speechless? But he knows he has to say more, when he ended on a negative. "- I don't know what I'm supposed to - I didn't -"
Fuck. He scrubs a hand over his face and tries again. "Connor, you're the most important person in my life right now, but I don't know if I can - if I do - fuck." The last word comes out as a long, shaky exhale.